Jeff Update...

Nothing too exciting, but they took the stitch out (it's been stitched shut since April 24 to heal up) and everything looks really good. The doctor seemed pleased with the progress and told us to go ahead and make an appointment with the ocularist (the lady who makes eye prosthetics)so he can get an eye in there. He also wants to go ahead and fix the eyelid (it's droopy and has been for years)so it will sit more naturally for him. Apparently they take some fascia out of his leg (yet more harvesting of pieces from other parts of his body. Interesting.)and create a "sling" with it to his brow bone, so his lid won't sag. Jeff is always so hesitant for things like that; he feels really selfish doing something for cosmetic purposes, but the doctors act like they really want to do it and want Jeff to be happy with their work...also an interesting perspective. If the $$ turns out okay we will go ahead with it. I think it will be okay. I found out the prosthetic eye could be as much as $2600, but sometimes when there is no insurance to cover things like that they will make deals, so let's pray for deals! I hate to use the phrase "Jeff deserves it" but that's kind of how I feel. In the big scheme of things, we really deserve nothing. Every good thing is a gift, nothing should be expected. But Jeff endures a lot, and I think we would all agree that living with no front teeth and a funky eye that everyone looks at could be wearisome. I was complaining the other day about a couple of blemishes on my face (yes, the 43 year old with pimples AND wrinkles. Lovely.) and he just laughed at me and told me I was beautiful regardless, and I'm thinking "yea right..." But then I realized that I think Jeff is as handsome as the day I met him, no teeth and funky eye and all, and I believed him. When you're married for so long and you find yourself MORE in love, it's pure bliss. We're so on the same plane right now and it's so amazing and secure and beautiful, right in the heart, in the gut. I can't even put it into words actually. Tomorrow is our 21st anniversary too, and I've now known Jeff for 25 years, more than half my life. Crazy huh?